My Audience of one

Today is a day that can only be described as indescribable. I feel as though God has made it just for me. It's cloudy and rainy, my perfect sort of weather. I don't know, the mystery and beauty of an overcast day has always drawn me closer to him. In the last 24 hours I have felt his presence and his overwhelming greatness in a way that I haven't felt in an extremely long time. Maybe, not ever. And as I sit and reflect on all that he has done, tears are brought full force to my eyes. His love for me is the most overwhelming feeling I could ever know. But I am simply at a loss for words. I love when that happens. I love words, and I love when I am so overtaken with all that my Savior is and has done, that I can't even begin to find one that describes it. I long to feel and be in worship and praise of him every second of every day, just as I am now. It breaks my heart to know that instead of growing in this amazing thing going on right now, I choose to be selfish most times and live for myself. How ironic that when we praise our Savior the way he deserves, we end up feeling amazing as well? What an amazing gift! As if we were deserving of more gifts that the gift he gave by bringing salvation...wow. I can't help but use the world overwhelmed...it is really and truly the only word that comes to mind right now. Why does he bless me so much?!? I am SO undeserving! What love! Even when I ignore, spit in his face, live this precious life for myself, he still is so in love with me. Not only that, but he chooses to keep giving blessing. Why would I want anything else? There is a song that has been stuck in my heart today. The Middle School students that I work with led this song in our worship session today. The words capture just the tiniest bit of what is going on in my heart. I pray that as I try to live these things out, the Father consumes every bit of who I am. I want nothing else. I pray that I can only have the strenght and humility to make sure I allow the Lord to use me in every possible way so that every person on this earth might get to experience this indescribable love!

I come on my knees
To lay down before you
Bringing all that I am
Longing only to know you
Seeking your face
And not only your hand
I find you embracing me
Just as I am

And I lift these songs
To you and you alone
As I sing to you
In my praises make your home

Chorus:
To my audience of one
You are Father, and you are Son
As your spirit flows free,
Let it find within me
A heart that beats to praise you.
And now just to know you more
Has become my great reward
To see your kingdom come
And your will be done
I only desire to be yours,
Lord

So what could I bring
To honor your majesty
What song could I sing
That would move the heart of royalty
And all that I have
Is the life that you’ve given me
So Lord let me live for you
My song with humility

And Lord as the love song
Of my life is played
I have one desire
To bring glory to your name

CHORUS

And we lift these songs
To you and you alone
As we sing to you
In our praises make your home